my sister follows me on my other tumblr i use regularly and now i feel like i can’t really write what i’m thinking and just ugh.

all i could think at break while eating a packet of crisps was everyone’s looking at me or i must look disgusting, never felt so uncomfortable 

i really need to keep myself distracted tonight but i haven’t got anything to do and i just want to go somewhere or i want my boy here but he’s busy 

i feel like everyone’s trying to feed me recently, i don’t see my eating habit as a problem. Unless i go to the doctors and they tell me it’s a problem then for me it’s not a problem.

My throat hurts from purging. Why have i started doing this again?

floating thoughts
struggling words  

sometimes i feel like telling someone would help but just thinking about it makes me feel sick so i don’t ever know how i’d be able to work up the courage to tell someone, and i’m scared i’ll tell someone and they’ll not care or not know how to help and then feel like it was for nothing.